Bar Exam - Round 2

Okay, so the studying for the upcoming July bar exam has officially started. I must admit it is quite difficult getting back into the routine of things. It is hard to sit down in front of this computer, and do review for the bar, with a multitude of books on my desk, when it is sunny and bright outside, and there are a million other things I'd rather be doing.

Nonetheless, I will go through this, and I will do it right, and I am going to give it my best. Failure is not something I'd like to get accustomed to. I'd like to learn from the previous experience, and move on. It is as simple as that.

My heart aches when I talk to my friend Sherry who passed. She is going to have her oath ceremony soon. She calls...to make sure I am okay, and she gave me her books. She's a sweetheart. My heart aches, not because I didn't want her to pass...but because a part of me wanted to have passed with her. There is nothing I would have wanted more.

I am pretty ambitious. I am. I want certain things in life. I work hard in order to get to those things I want. They are not material things really....just things, personal things. I want praises. I want recognition. I like being driven. I want to look back at my life someday and know that I worked hard, that made something out of myself, that I didn't let fate or chance control my life...that I was the captain of my ship. It is not so much that I don't value the little things in life, because I do. I recognize balance. However, I want a life that is beyond ordinary. I don't want to wake up twenty years from now, and still be in the same place I always was - stock in a rut - with nowhere to go...regretting the many things I wish I could have done.

I need progress. I want people to respect me, and be worthy of that respect. I want my family to be proud of me. I want others to be inspired by me.

Too much huh? Well, those are the things that I want....one day at a time.