The extravaganza of it all....the wedding of the year?

I had family over the weekend, and we all went to a cousin's wedding at the Hyatt Huntington Beach. It was a muslim and a catholic wedding - we were strictly instructed that it was a black tie affair - hence all the ladies were in evening gowns and the men in tuxes and suits.

I deliberately missed the two ceremonies (Catholic and Muslim) because who are we kidding, I do not have 6 hours to sit down and attend two wedding ceremonies - no matter how regal, fancy, elaborate and wonderful it is - honey, I just do not have the time. I heard it was quite a production...well that is always the case with many relatives of mine. Everything is a production...right down to the hair clip that sits on the top of your head (or in this case the peacock feather). It was well circulated that the wedding costs them $200 a head, that the bride was wearing a $5,000 dress, that it costs $350 to book at room at the Hyatt and that the parents of the groom have a mansion of a house. Damn, these people.

Oh yeah, and that every aunt of mine now has had some form of cosmetic surgery - nose, tummy tuck, boobs - you name it. Nice, I thought - so I guess my vain mentality was inherited after all. Great.

The bride had a beautiful mermaid gown. However, she had feathers on her head. She had a peacocks tail feathers on the head? Why? Fashionable yes - but timeless, I highly doubt that. I will admit though that despite the peacock feathers on her head - she looked beautiful. Definitely unique -

I left at 11 - because the Afghan music was splitting my pea brain in numerous little pieces. It was nice to get dressed, go out, have dinner and mingle with family for a few hours, before going back to this dark hole of a place, I call - the bar dungeon.

And oh yeah - while looking at the wedding photos and at my female relatives and many wedding guests who appeared to had just came from their visit to cosmetic surgeons - and were looking all skinny, with high noses and big boobs -I realized that I am getting chubby and need to diet - need to lose 15 pounds by the end of the month. I hate being chubby - Although I love my bubble butt - I don't like all that weight on my arms and face. Crap - dieting - one more thing I must add on my too long of a to-do list. Maybe I can have a surgeon suck out all the fat....hah! j/k

Shower in anticipation of Baby Aiden Jeremiah Catoera Mesa

The Catoera's and Mesa's got together to shower my sister and Peter a baby shower today, in anticipation of Baby Aiden's arrival. We had a great turn out. It was held at Dolphin Park, over at Carson. We got lots and lots of gifts (I didn't even know how they transported them from the park to the house). Aidan will be very happy. I hope they were able to get what they need for the baby.

Today was definitely a hectic day. My weekend has disappeared and I didn't get a lot done studying wise - but it's okay. I will catch up this coming week. There are just some moments in life, that are too important, you simply cannot miss it...no matter what. This is one of them.

Bar Exam - Round 2

Okay, so the studying for the upcoming July bar exam has officially started. I must admit it is quite difficult getting back into the routine of things. It is hard to sit down in front of this computer, and do review for the bar, with a multitude of books on my desk, when it is sunny and bright outside, and there are a million other things I'd rather be doing.

Nonetheless, I will go through this, and I will do it right, and I am going to give it my best. Failure is not something I'd like to get accustomed to. I'd like to learn from the previous experience, and move on. It is as simple as that.

My heart aches when I talk to my friend Sherry who passed. She is going to have her oath ceremony soon. She calls...to make sure I am okay, and she gave me her books. She's a sweetheart. My heart aches, not because I didn't want her to pass...but because a part of me wanted to have passed with her. There is nothing I would have wanted more.

I am pretty ambitious. I am. I want certain things in life. I work hard in order to get to those things I want. They are not material things really....just things, personal things. I want praises. I want recognition. I like being driven. I want to look back at my life someday and know that I worked hard, that made something out of myself, that I didn't let fate or chance control my life...that I was the captain of my ship. It is not so much that I don't value the little things in life, because I do. I recognize balance. However, I want a life that is beyond ordinary. I don't want to wake up twenty years from now, and still be in the same place I always was - stock in a rut - with nowhere to go...regretting the many things I wish I could have done.

I need progress. I want people to respect me, and be worthy of that respect. I want my family to be proud of me. I want others to be inspired by me.

Too much huh? Well, those are the things that I want....one day at a time.